A vivid, darkly funny, moving and uplifting account of a young woman's struggle with OCD.
As a child, Lily Bailey knew she was bad. By the age of 13, she had killed someone with a thought, spread untold disease and ogled the bodies of other children.
Only by performing an exhausting series of secret routines could she correct her wrongdoing. But it was never enough. She had a severe case of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. From child to teenager to young woman, OCD had ruled Lily's life, sending a bright, vital mind spinning into a downward vortex. Until she learnt a fundamental philosophical lesson.
Raw and funny, heart-breaking and uplifting, Because We Are Bad reveals with humour, grace and searing honesty what it's like to live with an almost intolerable burden of obsession.
About the Author
Lily Bailey is a model and writer. She became a journalist in London in 2012, editing a news site and writing features and fashion articles for local publications including the Richmond Magazine and the Kingston Magazine. As a child and teenager, Lily suffered from severe Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD). She kept her illness private, until the widespread misunderstanding of the disorder spurred her into action. Lily lives in London with her dog, Rocky.
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This story offers a wonderful insight to OCD and the manifestations of the condition.
Surprisingly engaging read through within 4 days . Interesting insight to OCD .
"It has been an hours and fifty minutes since I've been by myself. I've enjoyed hanging out with Frankie, but the routines have piled up as usual and now I'm at bursting point. When I spend uninterrupted time with other people, a dam builds in my head. It can hold the words back for a while, but at some point they'll surge free and overflow, and there will be chaos"
Because We Are Bad is a memoir by British model, journalist and author, Lily Bailey. Even in her earliest memories of childhood, Lily Bailey recalls having Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Of course, she didn't know what it was then: diagnosis and treatment did not happen until she was sixteen. But obsessions and compulsions filled her life: rituals and routines ruled her every waking moment.
OCD manifests in a myriad of different ways, and the triggers (obsessions) for the compulsions are as varied as the compulsive behaviours themselves (it's not all hand washing). In Lily's case, she was convinced that she was bad, and would constantly analyse her actions to confirm or challenge that belief. From an early age, her OCD was like a voice inside her, a very real presence ("She"), convincing her of her badness and telling her what she needed to do to negate it. During the explanation by her psychiatrist of what happens in OCD, "She is sulking in a corner of my brain".
Bailey's account of her life so far is candid and illuminating. As Lily describes the debilitating rituals she followed, revealing how energy-sapping and time-consuming they were, the reader will wonder just how much more this obviously intelligent girl might have achieved without this handicap. Bailey demonstrates the negative effects of guilt and shame, and also psychological mismanagement. The positive results that come from good management, from understanding and acceptance are apparent in Lily's recovery.
This inspirational memoir ends on a positive note: "Sometimes I have bad days where grey thoughts saunter in like unwanted dinner
Number Of Pages: 256
Published: 10th May 2017
Publisher: Allen & Unwin
Country of Publication: AU
Dimensions (cm): 23.4 x 15.3