Misfit

'I wanted to go back to the real me, Amanda Goff. Yet there was just one problem. I had no idea who she was. I had no idea who I was. I hadn't been Amanda for years, decades. Samantha wasn't leaving just yet; she wasn't going to make a quiet exit. She wasn't that type of woman.'

Amanda Goff was a successful journalist in London and Sydney before ditching her nine-to-five job at the age of 38 to become Samantha X, Australia's most famous escort. A bipolar diagnosis changed everything: she retired from sex work, walked away from Samantha X, and went in search of Amanda.

Misfit is her third memoir - but the first written as 'herself'. Raw, honest, provocative, wise and often laugh-out-loud funny, this is an unflinching record of her journey along the bumpy path to healing and self-acceptance. Beyond confronting her bipolar disorder and addiction issues, Amanda must also contend with prejudice and judgement, lingering trauma from her earlier life, and her own crushing self-doubt. As she struggles with the realities of so-called normality, the persistent voice of Samantha X is there to remind her of a former life that offered power, money, fame - and protection from the challenges that Amanda has courageously chosen to tackle head-on.

About the Author

Amanda Goff was a successful journalist in London and Sydney before ditching her nine-to-five to become Samantha X, Australia's most famous escort, at the age of 38. She later went on to found her own escort agency, hiring women over 40. Writing as Samantha X, the single mother of two published her bestselling memoirs Hooked (Ebury, 2014) and Back on Top (Hachette, 2017). She outed herself on national TV, gaining fans and critics worldwide, and became the Australian media's go-to commentator and writer on subjects such as women's sexuality after 40 and the emotional needs of men. After a bipolar diagnosis and getting sober, Samantha X retired at the age of 49 and walked away from the adult industry to become Amanda again. Amanda lives at Bondi Beach, Sydney.