The Light Streamed Beneath It

Award-winning comedian Shawn Hitchins takes readers into a year of unthinkable loss in this memoir that explores grief, love, sex, community, and the beautiful absurdity of being alive.

A lifetime of finding punchlines in his heartache comes to a shuddering stop when comedian and writer Shawn Hitchins loses two great loves, five months apart, to sudden death. In this deeply poignant memoir that combines sober self-portrait with tender elegy, Hitchins explores the messiness of being alive: the longing and desire, scorching-earth anger, raw grief and the pathway of healing he discovers when he lets his heart remain open.

Never without an edge of self-awareness, The Light Streamed Beneath It invites the reader into Hitchins’s world as he reckons with his past and stays painfully in the present. As he builds an embodied future, he confronts the stories that have shaped him, sets aside his ambition, and seeks connection in what he used to deflect with laughter therapy, community and chosen family, movement, spirituality, and an awareness of death’s ever-presence.

A heartrending and hope-filled story of resilience in the wake of death, The Light Streamed Beneath It joyfully affirms that life is essentially good, as Hitchins weaves his tale full of tenacious spirit, humor, kindness, and grit through life’s most unforgiving challenges. Award-winning comedian Shawn Hitchins takes readers into a year of unthinkable loss in this memoir that explores grief, love, sex, community, and the beautiful absurdity of being alive.