A Referral .
Descent 1
Growing Pains. 9
What Did You Do on Summer Vacation?. 11
Germination. 15
Proverbs 31. 17
Here I Am, Locked Inside Again...... 21
Dysesthesia. 23
My mother made me. 25
Leo. 27
Decline 29
Fertilizer 37
Referral to Psychology. 39
Is It A Symptom or Hallucination?. 41
Who Will Believe Me?. 43
Do I Believe Me?. 45
Dystonia. 47
Gethsemane. 49
Cymbalta, 90mg. 51
They Put Stars in My Eyes. 55
Autophobia Syndrome. 57
Self-Titled Album.. 59
High White Blood Cells, Abnormally Low Vit. D.. 61
Familial Distortion. 63
Symptoms I Can't Say Out Loud. 65
This Did Not Make Me Stronger 67
"No One Is Stronger Than You, Mommy!". 69
I Can Never Go Home. 71
Chronic Fantasies. 73
To Be Loved Is to Be Seen. 75
Some Scars Are Decorations. 77
Bend. Don't Break. 79
Delay 81
Starlight Dreams. 93
Little Starlight 95
I Would Wait for You for an Eternity. 97
When You Wish Upon a Star 99
Before Starlight, There Was Thanatos. 101
Is Anyone Even Listening?! 103
Replying "Not Attending" to Baby Showers. 105
Mistaking Chronic Illness as Impending Death. 107
To Hold a Galaxy. 109
A Shift in Perspective. 111
My Father's Legacy. 113
Knew I'd Love You, Didn't Know if You'd. 115
Seedlings. 117
Love Lived in Me. 119
Stop Judging Mothers. 121
Let Our Children Be Soft 123
Starlit Lullaby. 125
I Believe in Hope Because I Believe in Starlight 127
My Sheets Don't Smell Like You Anymore. 129
Letters To an Undisclosed P.O. Box. 131
Disorder 133
Textbook Womanhood. 143
Fucking Therapy. 147
Waiting Rooms. 149
Aphrodite. 151
This Isn't My Body. 153
Nevermind, I guess It Is. 155
Why Didn't They Find This Sooner?. 157
I'm Just Being Dramatic. 159
Over Iced Mochas and Tylenol 161
I'm a Scorpio, Not Cancer 165
Still, I Will Reach. 167
Dear uterus, 169
Decay 171
Home Sweet Haunted Home. 181
Lymphocyte. 185
They Said It's Just Anxiety. 187
Chronic Illness. 189
Ataxia. 191
When the doctor handed me my newest diagnoses /. 193
Demyelination. 195
Do You Still Love Me?. 199
Dysesthesia. 201
Main Street 203
Ocrevus. 205
When You Wake Up, I'll Be There. 207
The breakdown happens in real time. 209
Please come back. 211
Executive Function. 213
For All of My Life, I Will Grieve. 215
From Cradle to Grave. 217
220. 219
Bear Witness. 221
Sometimes Generational Gardens Should Die Off 223
No Relapse, No Remission. 227
The Contract 229
Primary Progressive Multiple Sclerosis. 231
diagnosis 233
