By: Vanessa Diffenbaugh

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'I had a sudden urge to tell him about the flowers, to explain the hidden meanings.
Honeysuckle for devotion.
Azaleas for passion.
Red roses for love.

'I placed a rhododendron on the plywood counter before him. The cluster of purple blossoms was not yet open and the buds pointed in his direction, tightly coiled and toxic.
Beware.'

In The Language of Flowers, Vanessa Diffenbaugh's powerful first novel, a damaged young woman, Victoria Jones, who can only communicate through the Victorian language of flowers, goes from being homeless to a sought after wedding floral designer.

The Victorian language of flowers was used to express emotions: honeysuckle for devotion, azaleas for passion, and red roses for love. But for Victoria Jones, it has been more useful in conveying feelings like grief, mistrust and solitude. After a childhood spent in the foster care system, she is unable to get close to anybody, and her only connection to the world is through flowers and their meanings.

Now eighteen, Victoria has nowhere to go, and sleeps in a public park, where she plants a small garden of her own. When her talent is discovered by a local florist, she discovers her gift for helping others through the flowers she chooses for them. But it takes meeting a mysterious vendor at the flower market for her to realise what's been missing in her own life, and as she starts to fall for him, she must decide whether it's worth risking everything for a second chance at happiness.

In The Language of Flowers is a heartbreaking and redemptive novel about the meaning of flowers, the meaning of family, and the meaning of love. Beautiful, original and utterly unforgettable.

About the Author

Vanessa Diffenbaugh was born and raised in California. She has degrees in Creative Writing and Art Education from Stanford University. She is an activist and has worked in non-profits with "at risk" youth, including homeless and foster youth. She and her husband have three children, Graciela, Miles, and Tre'von and live in Cambridge, Massachusetts.

In The Press

PRAISE FOR THE BOOK

This book is crazy good. CRAZY. GOOD... Vanessa Diffenbaugh will take the literary world by storm with her debut novel.
A Million Words

Enchanting, ennobling, and powerfully engaging, Diffenbaugh's artfully accomplished debut novel lends poignant testimony to the multitude of mysteries held in the human heart.
Carol Haggas, Booklist (US) - Starred review

‘I am not giving way to hyperbole when I say that this is one of the top 10 most commercial novels I've ever read.’
Geoff Duffield, Macmillan UK Sales and Marketing

‘I loved this book!! Had thought it was going to be a bit twee but in fact it’s really well done and I found it quite compelling. Thanks for letting me see the manuscript.’
Joan - Group Book Manager, Paper Plus New Zealand

‘I’ve been reading though The Language of Flowers and I think it’s wonderful!!!’
Galina Marinov, Buyer/Marketing Manager, Leading Edge

‘I must admit that I looked at this synopsis and couldn't see the potential of this book. I am, however, the first to admit that I was completely wrong. It has everything that should fit just perfectly into the commercial women's fiction market. A bit like Household Guide … and Room, it's the sort of book that will have people who read it wanting, and needing, to discuss it.’
Praveen Naidoo, PMA Australia

‘I read this over the holidays and absolutely LOVED it. Victoria is such an intense character who you can't help but completely believe in. It's also such a beautiful, heartbreaking love-story with every emotion communicated through flowers - so odd, yet incredibly powerful. We're going to get a ton of media interest in this book, so stay tuned …’
Kate Nash, PMA Australia

There are many different flowers that represent love - red roses, myrtle, tulips, and even the cactus - but it would take a whole bouquet of them to express how I feel about this truly remarkable novel.
Jennifer Smith, Editor, Ballantine US

‘When I first read The Language of Flowers, I thought it was as close to perfect as it is possible for a novel to be. Having worked on it since then, if anything, I love it even more and if I could attach a flower to this message it might be a tulip - a declaration of love.’
Jenny Geras - Senior Commissioning Editor, Fiction, Pan Macmillan UK

"Put 11 members of an Israeli editorial board around a table and you have 22 opinions. THE LANGUAGE OF FLOWERS generated a rare, unanimous decision. For a first novelist Vanessa shows remarkable control of the plot and pacing and has created memorable characters in Victoria, Grant, Elizabeth and Renata. A truly heart-warming and satisfying read."
Ziv Lewis - Kinneret-Zmora Publishing House, Israel

‘A very clever story, well written with unforgettable characters that are convincing and appealing. The angry nature of Victoria's personality can be harsh sometimes but you feel very close to her and totally moved by her demand to be loved for who she is. The novel I enjoyed the most reading this past year!’
Béatrice Duval, Directrice Editoriale, PRESSES DE LA CITE, FRANCE

‘For an editor it is more and more difficult these days to find a book that stirs you and that you believe can also move a large group of readers. This is what an editor looks for in a book and rarely finds. THE LANGUAGE OF FLOWERS has that rare power. The storyline is extremely strong, surprising and unpredictable at times, and always moving. It has a great pace and a great voice. I loved that the book is not only about romantic love, but also about the mother-daughter love, a bond that is crucial in everyone’s lives. And the way Vanessa very elegantly managed to achieve the right dosis of emotion, mystery, revelation, without ever being too sentimental.’
Clara Capitão, Editora Executiva/ Executive Editor, Objectiva, Portugal

An unforgettable, inspiring read, you will never again look at a bouquet of flowers in the same way.
Sigrid Kraus, Editorial Director, Ediciones Salamandra, Spain

“The Language of Flowers is a deeply touching and completely humane novel. When you finish the book you understand how flowers can give sense a whole life.“
Pilar Beltran, Edicions 62, Catalan, Spain

Captivating, beautiful and moving. You will never forget Victoria, this vulnerable and incredibly strong young woman who fights for her life and makes you love flowers forever.
Synnøve H. Tresselt, Aschehoug, Norway

We absolutely fell for Vanessa Diffenbaugh's story, and feel very confident that in a country that is cold, white and dark for a greater part of the year, The Language of Flowers will come through to Norwegian readers as exotic, fascinating and, above all - heart-warming!
Gunn Reinertsen Næss, Aschehoug, Norway

It is a great conceit - love story between two people who communicate by flowers - and there is an element of suspense that turns the pages as the story switches between the present and back to a tragic event in Victoria's childhood. A wonderful and endearing read!
Paul Christoph, Editora Sextante, Brazil

“Simply gripping to the last page. The Language of Flowers is a touching novel, full of delicate yet intense emotions. It’s only through forgiveness and understanding that we can truly grow up.”
Kamloon Woo, Deputy Editor-in-Chief, Linking, Taiwan

A moving and fascinating description of the contrast between the harsh life of a ‘survivor’ (a dandelion!) and the romantic Victorian language of flowers. The novel leaves you with the comforting feeling that there is always hope.
Turid Løvskar, Nordic editor-in-chief, Bazar Forlag, Sweden

“The story of Victoria is captivating. You cannot but like this young woman buffeted by life. Her understanding of the language of flowers and the mysticism, traditions and beliefs attached to them are the carrying theme of the novel - and the satisfying end is the crown of it all. This is a perfect book for women’s spring reading, and what we learn from the meaning of flowers will stay in the readers’ minds long afterwards.”
Kiti Kattelus, WSOY, Finland

“This is a well written and deeply moving novel about love, maternity, forgiveness and reconciliation. It's about real people with real issues and the serious dark tone makes it unique among other romantic novels. It's a psychological page-turner that you can't help feeling touched by on so many levels.”
Marie Storm, LINDHARDT OG RINGHOF, Denmark

“A gripping novel, a page-turner about love and the importance of being loved. And as a bonus - the magic language of flowers!”
Marika Hemmel, LINDHARDT OG RINGHOF, Denmark

“Flowers can make you happy, can touch your soul and give comfort and hope. Flowers can speak to you like a best friend. So does this unforgettable Victoria’s story.”
Monika Mielke, Publisher, S'wiat Ksia;z.ki Sp. z o.o., Poland

“This book is sentimental in an old-fashioned style and tough in a modern way. A terrific combination, which will find millions of readers all over the world.”
Irina Bachkalo, Ripol Classic, editor-in-chief of translated fiction

For eight years I dreamed of fire. Trees ignited as I passed them, oceans burned. The sugary smoke settled in my hair as I slept, the scent like a cloud left on my pillow as I rose. Even so, the moment my mattress started to burn, I bolted awake. The sharp, chemical smell was nothing like the hazy syrup of my dreams; the two were as different as Indian and Carolina jasmine, separation and attachment. They could not be confused.

Standing in the middle of the room, I located the source of the fire. A neat row of wooden matches lined the foot of the bed. They ignited, one after the next, a glowing picket fence across the piped edging. Watching them light, I felt a terror unequal to the size of the flickering flames, and for a paralyzing moment I was ten years old again, desperate and hopeful in a way I had never been before and would never be again.

But the bare, synthetic mattress did not ignite like the thistle had in late October. It smoldered, and then the fire went out. It was my eighteenth birthday.

In the living room, a row of fidgeting girls sat on the sagging couch. Their eyes scanned my body and settled on my bare, unburned feet. One girl looked relieved; another, disappointed. If I’d been staying another week, I would have remembered each expression. I would have retaliated with rusty nails in the soles of shoes or small pebbles in bowls of chili. Once, I’d held the end of a glowing metal clothes hanger to a sleeping roommate’s shoulder, for an offense less severe than arson.

But in an hour, I’d be gone. The girls knew this, every one. From the center of the couch, a girl stood up. She looked young – fifteen, sixteen at most – and was pretty in a way I didn’t see much of: good posture, clear skin, new clothes. I didn’t immediately recognize her, but when she crossed the room there was something familiar about the way she walked, arms bent and aggressive. Though she’d just moved in, she was not a stranger; it struck me that I’d lived with her before, in the years after Elizabeth, when I was at my most angry and violent.

Inches from my body she stopped, her chin jutted into the space between us.

“The fire,” she said evenly, “was from all of us. Happy birthday.”

Behind her, the row of girls on the couch squirmed. A hood was pulled up, a blanket wrapped tighter. Morning light flickered across a line of lowered eyes, and the girls looked suddenly young, trapped. The only way out of a group home like this one was to run away, age out, or be institutionalized. Level 14 kids weren’t adopted; they rarely, if ever, went home. These girls knew their prospects. In their eyes was nothing but fear: of me, of their housemates, of the life they had earned or been given. I felt an unexpected rush of pity. I was leaving; they had no choice but to stay.

I tried to push my way toward the door, but the girl stepped to the side, blocking my path.

“Move,” I said.

A young woman working the night shift poked her head out of the kitchen. She was probably not yet twenty, and more terrified of me than any of the girls in the room.

“Please,” she said, her voice begging, “This is her last morning. Just let her go.”

I waited, ready, as the girl before me pulled her stomach in, fists clenched tight. But after a moment, she shook her head and turned away. I walked around her.

I had an hour before Meredith would come for me. Opening the front door, I stepped outside. It was a foggy San Francisco morning, the cement porch cool on my bare feet. I paused, thinking. I’d planned to gather a response for the girls, something biting and hateful, but I felt strangely forgiving. Maybe it was because I was eighteen, because, all at once, it was over for me, that I was able to feel tenderness toward their crime. Before I left, I wanted to say something to combat the fear in their eyes.

Walking down Fell, I turned onto Market. My steps slowed as I reached a busy intersection, unsure of where to go. Any other day I would have plucked annuals from Duboce Park, scoured the overgrown lot at Page and Buchanan, or stolen herbs from the neighborhood market. For most of a decade I’d spent every spare moment memorizing the meanings and scientific descriptions of individual flowers, but the knowledge went mostly unutilized. I used the same flowers again and again: a bouquet of marigold, grief; a bucket of thistle, misanthropy; a pinch of dried basil; hatred. Only occasionally did my communication vary: a pocketful of red carnations for the judge when I realized I would never go back to the vineyard, and peony for Meredith, as often as I could find it. Now, searching Market Street for a florist, I scoured my mental dictionary.

After three blocks I came to a liquor store, where paperwrapped bouquets wilted in buckets under the barred windows.

I paused in front of the store. They were mostly mixed arrangements, their messages conflicting. The selection of solid bouquets was small: standard roses in red and pink, a wilting bunch of striped carnations, and, bursting from its paper cone, a cluster of purple dahlias. Dignity. Immediately, I knew it was the message I wanted to give. Turning my back to the angled mirror above the door, I tucked the flowers inside my coat and ran.

I was out of breath by the time I returned to the house. The living room was empty, and I stepped inside to unwrap the dahlias. The flowers were perfect starbursts, layers of whitetipped purple petals unfurling from tight buds of a center. Biting off an elastic band, I detangled the stems. The girls would never understand the meaning of the dahlias (the meaning itself, an ambiguous statement of encouragement); even so, I felt an unfamiliar lightness as I paced the long hall, slipping a stem under each closed bedroom door.

The remaining flowers I gave to the young woman who’d worked the night shift. She was standing by the kitchen window, waiting for her replacement.

“Thank you,” she said when I handed her the bouquet, confusion in her voice. She twirled the stiff stems between her palms.

Meredith arrived at ten o’clock, as she told me she would. I waited on the front porch, a cardboard box balanced on my thighs. In eighteen years I’d collected mostly books: the Dictionary of Flowers and Peterson Field Guide to Pacific States Wildflowers, both sent to me by Elizabeth a month after I left her home; botany textbooks from libraries all over the East Bay; thin paperback volumes of Victorian poetry stolen from quiet bookstores. Stacks of folded clothes covered the books, a collection of found and stolen items, some that fit, many that did not. Meredith was taking me to The Gathering House, a transitional home in the Outer Sunset. I’d been on the waiting list since I was ten.

“Happy Birthday,” Meredith said as I put my box on the back seat of her county car. I didn’t say anything. We both knew that it may or may not have been my birthday. My first court report listed my age as approximately 3 weeks; my birth date and location were unknown, as were my biological parents. August 1st had been chosen for purposes of emancipation, not celebration.

I slunk into the front seat next to Meredith and closed the door, waiting for her to pull away from the curb. Her acrylic fingernails tapped against the steering wheel. I buckled my seat belt. Still, the car did not move. I turned to face Meredith. I had not changed out of my pajamas, and I pulled my flannel-covered knees up to my chest and wrapped my jacket around my legs. My eyes scanned the roof of Meredith’s car as I waited for her to speak.

“Well, are you ready?” she asked.

I shrugged.

“This is it, you know,” she said. “Your life starts here. No one to blame but yourself from here on out.”

Meredith Combs, the social worker responsible for selecting the stream of adoptive families that gave me back, wanted to talk to me about blame.

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I pressed my forehead against the window and watched the dusty summer hills roll past. Meredith’s car smelled like cigarette smoke, and there was mold on the straps of the seat belt from something some other child had been allowed to eat. I was nine years old. I sat in the back seat of the car in my nightgown, my cropped hair a tangled mess. It was not the way Meredith had wanted it. She’d purchased a dress for the occasion, a flowing, pale blue shift with embroidery and lace. But I had refused to wear it.

Meredith stared at the road ahead. She didn’t see me unbuckle my seat belt, roll down the window, and stick my head out until my collarbone pressed against the top of the door. Tilting my chin up into the wind, I waited for her to tell me to sit down. She glanced back at me but didn’t say anything. Her mouth remained a tight line and I couldn’t see her expression underneath her sunglasses.

I stayed this way, leaning a little further over every passing mile, until Meredith touched a button on her door that made the window rise an inch without warning. The thick glass pressed into my outstretched neck. I flew back, bouncing off the seat and sinking down onto the floor. Meredith continued to raise the windows until the wind rushing through the car was replaced by silence. She did not look back. Curling up on the dirty carpet, I pulled a rancid baby bottle from deep beneath the passenger seat and threw it at Meredith. It hit her shoulder and flew back at me, leaking a sour puddle onto my knees. Meredith didn’t flinch.

“Do you want peaches?” she asked.

Food was something I could never refuse, and Meredith knew it.

“Yes.”

“Then get in your seat, buckle your seat belt, and I’ll buy you whatever you want at the next fruit stand we pass.”

I climbed into the seat and pulled the seat belt across my chest.

Fifteen minutes passed before Meredith pulled off the freeway. She bought me two peaches and a half-pound of cherries, which I counted as I ate.

“I’m not supposed to tell you this,” Meredith began. Her words were slow, the sentence drawn out for effect. She paused and glanced back at me. I turned my eyes out the window and rested my cheek against the glass, unresponsive. “But I think you deserve to know. This is your last chance. Your very last chance, Victoria—did you hear me?” I didn’t acknowledge her question. “When you turn ten the county will label you unadoptable, and even I won’t keep trying to convince families to take you. It’ll be group home after group home until you emancipate if this doesn’t work out—just promise me you’ll think about that.”

I rolled down the window and spit cherry seeds into the wind.

Meredith had picked me up from my first stay at a group home just an hour before. It struck me that my placement in the home may have been purposeful—in preparation for this exact moment.

I hadn’t done anything to get kicked out of my last foster home, and I was in the group home only a week before Meredith came to take me to Elizabeth.

It would be just like Meredith, I thought, to make me suffer to prove her point. The staff at the group home had been cruel.

Every morning the cook made a fat, dark-skinned girl eat with her shirt pulled up around her neck, her bulging belly exposed, so she would remember not to eat too much. Afterward, the house mother, Miss Gayle, chose one of us to stand at the head of the long table and explain why our family didn’t want us. Miss Gayle picked me only once, and since I was abandoned at birth I got away with saying my mother didn’t want a baby. Other girls told stories of the awful things they’d done to siblings, or why they were responsible for their parent’s drug addiction, and almost always they cried.

But if Meredith had placed me in the group home to scare me into behaving, it hadn’t worked. Despite the staff, I liked it there. Meals were served at regular hours, I slept under two blankets, and no one pretended to love me.

I ate the last cherry and spit the seed at the back of Meredith’s head.

“Just think about it,” she said again. As if to bribe me into contemplation, she pulled over and purchased a steaming basket of fish and chips and a chocolate milkshake from a drive-through.

I ate quickly, sloppily, watching the dusty summer hills of the East Bay turn into the crowded chaos of San Francisco and then open up into a great expanse of bay. By the time we crossed the Golden Gate Bridge, my nightgown was covered in peaches, cherries, ketchup and ice cream.

We passed dry fields, a flower farm, an empty parking lot, and finally came to a vineyard, the vines neat stripes on the rolling hillside. Meredith braked hard and turned left onto a long dirt driveway, increasing her speed on the bumpy road as if she couldn’t wait another moment to get me out of her car. We went flying past picnic tables and rows of carefully tended, thicktrunked grapes growing on low wires. Meredith slowed slightly at turn before picking up speed again and driving toward a gathering of tall trees in the center of the property, dust billowing around her county car.

When she stopped and the dust cleared I saw a white farmhouse. It stood two-stories tall with a peaked roof, glass porch, and lace curtains covering the windows. To the right was a low metal trailer and more than one slumping shed; toys, tools and bikes scattered between them. Having lived in a trailer before, I immediately wondered if Elizabeth would have a foldout couch or if I would have to share her bedroom. I didn’t like listening to people breathe.

Meredith didn’t wait to see if I would get out of the car voluntarily. She unbuckled my seat belt, grabbed me under my arms, and pulled me kicking to the front of the large house. I expected Elizabeth to come out of the trailer, so I had my back to the front porch and didn’t see her before feeling her bony fingers on my shoulder. Shrieking, I bolted forward, sprinting on bare feet to the far side of the car and then crouching down behind it. “She doesn’t like to be touched,” I heard Meredith say to Elizabeth with obvious annoyance. “I told you that. You have to wait until she comes to you.” It angered me that she knew this. I rubbed the skin where Elizabeth had touched me, erasing her fingerprints, and stayed out of sight behind the car.

“I’ll wait,” Elizabeth said. “I told you I would wait and I don’t intend to go back on my word.”

Meredith began to recite the usual list of reasons she couldn’t stay to help us get to know each other: an ailing grandparent, an anxious husband, and her fear of driving at night. Elizabeth’s foot tapped impatiently near the rear tire as she listened. In a moment Meredith would be gone, leaving me exposed in the gravel. I crawled backwards, low to the ground. Darting behind a walnut tree, I stood up and ran.

At the end of the trees I ducked into the first row of grapes, hiding within a dense plant. I pulled down the loose vines and wrapped them around my thin body. From my hiding spot I could hear Elizabeth coming toward me, and by adjusting the vines I could see her walking along one of the aisles. I let my hand drop from my mouth with relief as she passed my row.

Reaching up, I picked a grape from the nearest bunch and bit through the thick skin. It was sour. I spit it out and smashed the rest of the bunch one at a time under my foot, the juice squishing between my toes.

I didn’t see or hear Elizabeth come back in my direction. But just as I began to smash a second bunch of grapes, she reached down into the vines, grabbed me by the arms, and pulled me out of my hiding spot. She held me out in front of her. My feet dangled an inch above the ground while she looked me over.

“I grew up here,” she said. “I know all the good hiding spots.”

I tried to break loose, but Elizabeth held firmly to both my arms. She set my feet down on the dirt but did not loosen her grasp. I kicked dust onto her shins, and when she didn’t release my arms I kicked her ankles. She did not step back.

I let out a growl and snapped my teeth toward her outstretched finger, but she saw me coming and grabbed my face.

She squeezed my cheeks until my jaw loosened and my lips puckered. I sucked in my breath in pain.

“No biting,” she said, and then leaned forward as if she would kiss my pink puckered lips but stopped inches from my face, her dark eyes drilling into mine. “I like to be touched,” she said.

“You’ll have to get used to it.”

She flashed me an amused grin and let go of my face.

“I won’t,” I promised. “I won’t ever get used to it.”

But I stopped fighting and let her pull me up the front porch and inside the cool, dark house.

ISBN: 9781742610153
ISBN-10: 1742610153
Audience: General
Format: Paperback
Language: English
Number Of Pages: 336
Published: 1st September 2011
Dimensions (cm): 23.4 x 15.5  x 2.5
Weight (kg): 0.386